My License (old)

This is kind of a late entry since I got my Driver's License yesterday? Woah, it didn't even seem like it was just yesterday. I thought it was like...a week ago. That's either a really good thing because time is moving slower, or that could be a bad thing because I got over getting my license so quickly. Anyways, I'm so happy I got it. I wanted it sooo bad. It was one of the goals I set for myself at 15. I am now 17. Yeah, it took me an extra year, but I still did it. And that's all the should matter, but of course my mind needs to complicate things. Pretty much, this is how it happened: I went to the DMV to take my written test--failed it. Then the guy was so nice about it that he was going to let my mom and I cut the line the next day so I could retake it. So we did. Expectedly, I passed the second time. Unexpectedly, I was going to take my driving test directly after. I knew I wasn't ready. The guy really gave me a free ride because on the test he didn't make me do anything! I got my license. I was supposed to be happy. But deep inside, I was so disappointed. I felt like I didn't really earn my license. You see, I didn't only want my license. I wanted to earn it as well. My mom told me that it was okay. She said it was good to get a break once in awhile. I thought about it more and realized that maybe it was so easy because God gave me my license. I wanted it soo bad. It bothered me terribly when I remembered that I was supposed to get it a year ago. It bothered me that my friend who was supposed to get hers after me got it before me. It made me feel like a loser. I prayed and prayed to God that I would get it soon. I was patient. Patience always pays off, don't you ever forget that. But now I finally have it. And I've learned to accept God's gift. But I always have other problems. It mostly has something to do with my boyfriend and I. I always do things with him that I regret. But I can't fight the temptation. It's almost like it's a trick. I'll be strong sometimes and not do anything stupid. But then later on I'll regret it and I'll only want to do it more. I hope that someday I will break this addiction. It's a bad one. Maybe when school starts and I get a job, I won't depend on my boyfriend to make me feel better anymore. Because in the end, it only makes me feel worse. For all of you out there who haven't had a boyfriend, don't try to rush into things. Take your time with everything. It will be more fulfilling that way. Don't let temptation get the best of you. And I always need to remember that patience pays off. I can't ever forget that.